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Three Years.
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It hardly feels like 3 years since I stopped posting photos on Deviantart, which I did for a few reasons if I'm being honest. One was because I became too obsessed with it. With the views and the favorites, and it really put a damper on my enjoyment of the craft itself. I thought, "Well, this one didn't get so many favorites so it must suck." and with this site that's not always the case. While the quality does play a part, it's not the only thing, and that's okay. Another was because well.. I really needed a break from photography. Being out of school was a real bummer, and the job I took afterwards is by no means a creative outlet, unless it's considered creative to find ways to tell someone they're idiots without actually saying it.
Anyways, no pity parties or 'boo hoo why don't I get more faves', just me saying I might be on uploading pictures again and not worrying about shit. It's for fun after all. I'm not making a profit off this, just sharing pictures of the things that make me happy.
That being said, most of the pictures I upload from this point will probably be leaning towards the doll side. Fair warning to everyone who may have followed for other reasons, haha.
Feel free to check out my blog at mothashes.wordpress.com
(spoiler alert, it's about dolls)
Anyways, no pity parties or 'boo hoo why don't I get more faves', just me saying I might be on uploading pictures again and not worrying about shit. It's for fun after all. I'm not making a profit off this, just sharing pictures of the things that make me happy.
That being said, most of the pictures I upload from this point will probably be leaning towards the doll side. Fair warning to everyone who may have followed for other reasons, haha.
Feel free to check out my blog at mothashes.wordpress.com
(spoiler alert, it's about dolls)
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Going back to the start.
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Quite often I find myself walking away from something because I over-complicate it and defeat myself before I even start. I'm that way in almost all my hobbies, but photography has been the worst. I went to college for photography, not because I thought it would land me a job, but because I wanted to expand my knowledge so I could do it better, and my parents said 'either go to college or work full time', so the choice was obvious. I graduated six months ago, and slowly began to realize what I have done.
I shot myself in the foot. Used to be when I picked up a camera I'd snap a picture, smile, and snap another without too much concern or regard to 'rules' or 'mistakes', but now when I look at a project I might want to do, my only thoughts are cold and calculating. That's not to say planning in and of itself is misery, but the way I go about it just takes all the fun, throws it on the floor, and stomps it into oblivion.
My family and friends haven't really helped matters. Photography is such a general thing, and it's not something one needs to specialize in to excel at. Most of the people in my life think, "Oh, she takes photos, I bet she'd love to do this for me." and that's just not the case! I HATE portraits! I HATE wedding photography! But you're a bad person when you say no to your family. My niece shoehorned me into doing her wedding roughly a month ago (for free of course), and those pictures are still sitting on my hard drive waiting to be edited, half-way out of spite because I told them multiple times I don't do weddings. It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to look at my camera.
I just... Want to go back to when things were simple. I didn't have to think too hard about what I was doing, and I had fun doing it. I experimented, even when people said it wouldn't turn out. It was satisfying, and I wasn't concerned about how many views I got or whether this would be popular to the general consensus. I don't want to be a defeatist machine anymore.
I shot myself in the foot. Used to be when I picked up a camera I'd snap a picture, smile, and snap another without too much concern or regard to 'rules' or 'mistakes', but now when I look at a project I might want to do, my only thoughts are cold and calculating. That's not to say planning in and of itself is misery, but the way I go about it just takes all the fun, throws it on the floor, and stomps it into oblivion.
My family and friends haven't really helped matters. Photography is such a general thing, and it's not something one needs to specialize in to excel at. Most of the people in my life think, "Oh, she takes photos, I bet she'd love to do this for me." and that's just not the case! I HATE portraits! I HATE wedding photography! But you're a bad person when you say no to your family. My niece shoehorned me into doing her wedding roughly a month ago (for free of course), and those pictures are still sitting on my hard drive waiting to be edited, half-way out of spite because I told them multiple times I don't do weddings. It's gotten to the point where I don't even want to look at my camera.
I just... Want to go back to when things were simple. I didn't have to think too hard about what I was doing, and I had fun doing it. I experimented, even when people said it wouldn't turn out. It was satisfying, and I wasn't concerned about how many views I got or whether this would be popular to the general consensus. I don't want to be a defeatist machine anymore.
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Lightroom Catalog Blues.
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Resolutions I probably won't keep.
6 min read
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Back from China!
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